i’ll be 21. another year of my life has passed, and while i guess i’ve learned a lot, sometimes i feel like the only thing that came out of this year has been more frustrations, more reasons to regret picking this school to go to and this city to live in and who i’ve dated, befriended and/or have let get close to me. 

after dating one person from the time i was 16-20 years old, i’ve discovered that i have no game and know pretty much nothing about dating, serious or not. that’s not really a priority other than it being embarrassing sometimes, and awkward always. 

there is a lot i wish i could change.

when i was younger, i really had hoped/expected my 21 year old self to first actually be happy, but secondly successful. i can honestly say that i feel that neither of those things have been achieved this year.  

also have become blatantly aware that my standards regarding most aspects of my life are way too high. i blame my parents and perfectionism for this.

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